Perpetual Unbalance

I had no idea that the person I began corresponding with almost a year ago would be someone that I ended up considering one of my best friends, much less that I would fall in love with her. But that is exactly what has happened. She is the most amazing woman I've ever met. She makes me so incredibly happy. I can't wait to see where things take us, this is the woman I have been waiting for. She sees me to a depth no one has ever cared to see before. Not to mention the fact that she sets me on fire! Ok sorry, getting ahead of myself. We began talking in March '06 but met in person 6 months ago, back when we were just friends. I gave a brief rundown of her visit in this post (guess I will call her by the same nickname that I did in that post, Turtle). Then recently, she came for a 4 day weekend. It was absolutely, indescribably, amazing. I'm headed that way in March for 9 wonderful days! She plans to move here in a few years and until then we will see each other as much as possible. What's 1400 miles anyway?

She has a 10 year old son that sounds cute as hell. I've talked to him a few times on the phone and he is very excited about me coming to visit. My kids LOVED Turtle. My oldest has even convinced her to get a myspace and they message pretty frequently. The week she came to visit I didn't have my kids but I wanted her to meet them so I got them for the afternoon one day. Most of the time they were with me that afternoon Turtle played games with them and they still remember it. Every time I'm on the phone with Turtle my youngest asks me when her and her son or coming to visit. They will both come here this summer. I can't wait for us to all be together, even if it will just be for a short time.

I know that this kind of relationship is dreadfully hard to maintain and the odds are against us but I feel in my heart that, with her, it's worth it. I would never be able to forgive myself if I didn't do everything I could to be with her. There will be bumps along the way, as there have been already. However we will just keep pressing on.

So it's a brand new year and I think there's a new me too, to some extent. Did anyone make any New Year's Resolutions this year? I did. A big one. I quit smoking!!! Yaaaaa me! It's been a week and I did smoke one cigarette, but mostly it's been easier than other times when I've quit. So I'm feeling very positive about that. So, come on... now it's your turn.

What's your New Year's Resolution?

Wow, it's been so long and I am SOOOOO far behind on blog reading. As soon as I'm done with this little update I'm off to see how all of you are doing. So sorry I haven't been around and I've missed ya'll so much. Things have been busy and hectic lately. I'll try to hit the highlights.

I'm sure there's so much more but of course I'm drawing a blank. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and stayed safe for New Year's Eve.